Just another day in the life of a writer.
I have been plugging along trying to get myself moving forward. My goals are small but powerful ones. Every little step leads to something bigger. My primary goal is to be able to support myself financially as a writer. This is not a career for the faint of heart. I just spent many hours today writing, editing, and submitting various different types of work. I know the rejections will follow soon.
You can’t measure success as a writer in dollar signs. If I was doing that I would have quit many a year ago. I now measure my success in how much I have grown as a career writer. What I learn and how I develop my writing style has become my new gage for success. Yes, my bills need paying too, but sometimes the hours you work at your writing don’t measure up to the small amount of payout you gain from it.
One of the funniest things I did this week was to actually buy two of my books in Kindle format. I wanted, needed, to know how they look to my readers. I admit it felt just like voting for myself in a school election. I was glad I did it though. I found that I do have a serious issue with one of them. There is nothing I can do at the moment about the problems. I finally have reached the point of maybe it is time to just create a whole new version and republish that one with a new cover and better set up. It is a lot like buying proof copies of your physical books. You merely need to see what is wrong with it.
Oops, what did I do?
I took a hard look at my past writings and realized I have come a long way. I see real issues that I need to correct as a professional Indie writer. Sometimes when you look back, you realize you shot yourself in the foot with bad grammar, spelling mistakes, and formatting issues. If that is the case, then you must up your game. Fix those past releases and move forward!
Same can be said about manuscripts. If you look at what you have been submitting and see it has problems, then you must stop and fix those. Do not continue trying to push a manuscript that doesn’t represent the best you can do. It will keep being rejected and paint a poor picture of the quality of your writing. When your skills grow then it is time to really assess your past work and bring it up to the new standard you have. Put your best writing forward! Trust me it makes a difference.
The world distracts me.
I have had a really crap week. I won’t lie about it either just because it is only Monday. I ended last week roughly, and it carried over into this week. When you have to deal with family, friends, and yourself too things can get hard. My ex-husband is now out of jail. You all can guess how much turmoil that can cause. You get used to a routine and being able to work within it. Small things can rock your boat, and big things can sink it. Sometimes you just have to learn to let the anger go.
Angry is my new happy, or so it seems. I get into writing and doing my daily workload then buzz. Buzz, Buzz, Buzz, ring, ring, knock, knock, and people chatting with me. I can’t handle the distractions. I try hard not to explode and scream at them all. Even if I had an office with a locking door that phone would still be there taunting me. I admit I filed it in a drawer this past week. I even said to it just shut up!
How do you focus in a world filled with distractions? No, I am not going to tell you a secret to this. I am asking how do you do it? I just about go crazy when I get my writing groove murdered and buried by the drama of the real world. How do you explain your love of torturing yourself on paper to everyone around you?
High drama here at my keyboard as my nerves almost snap and the plot thickens. Trying to push through and remind myself that success can’t be measured by the dollar amount. The $3 royalty check that I will get for the years of my bleeding onto the blank page reminds me of this. You can look at that small amount and say it wasn’t worth it. I look at it and say to myself people are reading my books. MY BOOKS ARE BEING READ. Is a small royalty check really impressive? No, I won’t lie and say it is, but I will say that being daring enough to publish then having royalties that prove your books are being read is very impressive!
Don’t get discouraged and try to not to let life and all the drama it involves get to you. Keep on writing and remember even a small royalty check is better than having never become an author! Keep on writing my dear friends and when you think of my family and me say a few prayers. We really need them.
Your Favorite Small Town Writer,